The picture I posted above is of my grandpa and my kids and nephew. They sure did love their great grandpa, "papa" as we called him. I posted it because this year has also been a tough year when it comes to loss. We lost my Grandpa (Above). He was a welder and pipe fitter for 50 years, he loved hunting and fishing, and he spent his retirement years giving as to every organization out there for conservation and habitat restoration, and wildlife in general. I will miss our conversations about hunting, and him showing me the latest article in Bugle magazine that intrigued him. He was set in his way, pretty hardcore person even until his death, and he did it his way at home, just like he said he would. I know my son really misses him too. This year I also lost my best friend and mentor, Mike. He was really the only father figure I had in my life, he checked in on me daily even as he struggled with a debilitating illness that eventually took his life. He was an air force Medic that took him to Alaska, Montana, Nevada, to name a few places, and Idaho, his home state that he loved so much. He was an avid outdoorsman and a straight up hunting fool. Thats the only way I know how to describe it. This man lived and breathed hunting. And he was darn good at it too. He would set up an elk/deer/bear/wolf camp every year and stay there from september until the snow started flying and kicked him off the mountain. That is where he found peace. He was simply put an all around beautiful person, in so many ways, and I feel kinda lost without him. He will be more than just missed.
It is weird how fast time goes by when we start to age. years feel like weeks, and they all seem to start to blur together. At least that is how it is for me. I am still struggling with debilitating Anxiety and some other issues that I don't care to elaborate on right now, but I will continue to walk forward and teach my kids the important things they need to know. That is my new goal in life. Not money, not material items, my new goal is to simply teach my kids as much as I can so that they can thrive in life, and hopefully not make some of the mistakes that I have. I just want the best for them, and that is all. I will continue to make knives as much as I can, when my health allows, and that is all I can do. Elk season is here, but waiting until the smoke and heat clears a little, opening morning we almost connected on a bull until the only other hunters within ten miles of us ruined it. Oh well. signing off for now.